Like a snake, you slithered your words onto my blog.
Hateful, disgusting, putrid words.
Without any thought of the consequence it would have on me, you typed fear directly inside my heart. You uttered sheer thoughtless and terrifying words. Without knowing, (or perhaps you did know), you came directly inside my home and turned a strong, brave woman into a terrified little girl. Solely with your words.
You get that right?
My computer sits in my living room, my safe place. The same spot my family gathers to eat dinner, laugh and smile after a long day. You came in here, and you assaulted me in my home. At least that is exactly how it felt when I lifted the screen to my laptop, (the same laptop my kids play on), and there rested your words.
I can’t begin to understand what it was that drove you to write, “You look like the type of woman who deserves, and asks to be raped. Rapists love a woman like you, with their pictures plastered all over their website, begging to be attacked.” and frankly, I don’t want to. To delve into such a sick and ignorant mind, causes me fear and anxiety. Plainly, I don’t want to consider there are people like you that exist.
However, sadly you do exist, as well as many other thoughtless cowards who hide behind their computer screens writing mean and reckless words.
Maybe you didn’t realize what your words would achieve. Perhaps you didn’t once think there was a person connected to the other end of your statements. Possibly you found the courage to write such callous concepts because there are hundreds of thousands of miles between the satellite dish in which your Wifi bounces before placed on my computer screen. Or maybe you are a coward and chose to hide behind your keyboard, spouting off whatever came to mind. Not once thinking there is a human on the other end, one with a heart and feelings.
Of all those options I just pondered, I believe, you are a coward, as is anyone who thinks it is okay to write anything hurtful on the internet. We all know there is a person who wrote the words you believe you have the right to retort in such a disgusting manner. There is no excuse for your ignorance, not anymore. You see, I don’t believe people like you are stupid, I consider you are mean insecure and maybe even sometimes psychotic assholes that have nothing better to do than troll websites and social media accounts.
You know as well as I, I am the person at the other end of your computer. But what you don’t know is I am a woman, who has lived through enough trauma and hurt, if you merely tasted a piece of it, you would choke on the pain.
You, Sir, do not have half of my strength.
You see Sir, ( and yes I now have the poise to call you Sir, although it has taken me two days to change my rhetoric towards you ) I am the survivor of rape and molestation. I survived to live and breathe my story, and that is what I will continue to do; you will not scare me into silence. I was silent for too long.
To all the trolls and writers of hateful words, you will not silence the brave. You merely perpetuated our need to speak louder, to write more.